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“Katja”

“Katja”
297 x 420 mm
Papier, Acryl, pen

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Le jour de la saint-valentin

my scanner thinks wrinkles in paper = blue.

Sleep mode

Sketching and repeating myself.

“Fear” on canvas – 420×300mm

“Fear” on canvas – 420×300mm

My scanner makes it look darker then it really is. Sorry.

I noted down what I did during this project (in Dutch) and I ROUGHLY translated it today. EXCUSE MY ENGLISH. 90 percent of what I wrote is me referring to sketches that aren’t posted on this web log … Whoops. Don’t read it haha.

Process duration: September 29 – November 17 
I constructing theme one, II constructing theme two, III revise theme one, IV study of techniques, V working towards the end result, VI end result.
The assignment given, were themes related to pop-art and its era.

1. CONSTRUCING THEME ONE
I chose retro: reminiscent of my childhood – 8 bit memories, as I am aware of how retro comes into being (taking in the old, molding it into new).
The assignment given was to make a collage out of prints of art magazines, dating 2004. I’ve used over twenty different images, trying to get my basic idea across: loosing yourself in a new, materialistic world: suffocating as it were.
All elements are related to decisions made in recent past. E.g. protesting-theme: graffiti on walls, Black Panther versus KKK, person with cryptic sign. Suffocating theme: skyscrapers and big cities versus individual, analogue long play records versus digital mp3’s, images of black and white tiles.

4. STUDY OF TECHNIQUE
I gave thinking about the theme a rest. It was autumn holiday and I really wanted to experiment on tools. I started a weblog. I met up with my best friend Sarah and her boyfriend Kaj and we decided to form a collective (WWW.SAKASA.NET)
I experimented with pen and pencil techniques (1. dragon like figure, experimenting with bordering pencil, 2. bird like figure, experimenting on using space) pen only (three drawings. One’s by blue pen, extremely detailed, Mezzanine / Flying Lotus inspired. Second one’s by black pen, using different objects as details, e.g. circles), combining paint and pen (6 drawings, the first one’s red/orange, very dry. The second one is earth toned coloured, dry. The third one is again earth toned, dry and has a ripped off piece. The fourth one is earth toned and orange-like, combining dry paint with fluid) and combining friends (4 drawings, 1. By my friend KAJ, using pencil animal dragon-like. 2. By my friend Sarah, space-like, using pen). I made several different drawings right after my holiday was over, experimenting with WASCO and marker.

5.WORKING TOWARDS END RESULT
I wanted to combine theme and technique so desperately. I made five drawings. 1. eye ball, painted with black and white and drawn with blue pen. I tried to find reasons why people think in this hierarchy sort of waand came up with “tunnel vision’. Therefore the eye was appropriate. The second one was a replica of that same eye on a2 paper. Though it had grey tones and some nuances with black pen on the right hand side. The third one’s a confusion of new markers and paint.
Mrs. Bordeaux liked the second one more and I had to agree with her. I was worrying about the end result and she told me not to worry.

6. END RESULT
Started off with an a3 sized canvas. I started off with black black in the midst of the painting and decided not to use any brushes (using fingers instead). I used Tip-Ex and white paint to whiten, two black markers and a black pen.
It’s actually a face as it has a glow of fuzziness that covers the eyes. This represents “tunnel vision” as well as “blind” as well as “fear”.
Some parts are fuzzy (e.g. the back of head) and some parts are crispy/sharp (nose/pen particles).

 
2. CONSTRUCTING THEME TWO.
Mrs. Bordeaux told me to try another theme. I chose “different beauty”, ‘cause of its “broadness”. 
Inspiration: a sketch of a peer shaped naked bald female. I liked the different curves that were made. I made five drawings. The first one is a figure with an afro, inspired by Quik’s (Lin Felton) “I don’t live today”. I used glue and ink on a3 sized paper. Main thought was: “Life is a beautiful struggle.” (cliché) – Talib Kweli. The second drawing’s tools were WASCO and marker on a3. The third drawing was made of WASCO and (black) paint on a3. The main thought was “detoxicating the pure”, referring to music theories (as a new genre starts to gain bigger audience, authenticity often disappears).
At home and at school I tend to doodle with my pen, so I chose to switch to using a black or blue pen as my tool. Inspiration given by Mrs. Bordeaux was Bic Art (Jan Fabre) and by Ms. ? weird organisms made by pen.
I drew 5 pieces. The first one’s made of paint. Dry paint varied with thick and thin brushes. Inspired by the curves of the peer-shaped person. I liked the nuances. The second one, combined with the third one were sea-like figures, drawn by pen, with details on different places (not centralized)

3. REVISE THEME ONE
Inspiration: Ulay & Abramovic “Balance Proof” (discussed in class).
Reason: I had some moments to myself that week, reflecting my thoughts on the way my parents and this culture raised me and how scared I am for me repeating (retro) these ways of upbringing to my future kids.
I drew 2 drawings. Both are drawn by pen, reflecting the weird organism’s type of drawing. Two parts are separated by a “mirror”. That is me, reflecting on myself: Will I be able to be entirely conscious of what I do in the future?
I had several ideas, but I was stuck along the road. Mrs. Bordeaux was able to give me some great advice: she told me to note the different moods down and start by drawing them separately. I made eight drawings by black pen on a4. The first one’s themed ‘fragile’, a silhouette lost in space. The second one’s fear, a figure clamped into itself. The third one’s ‘disappointment’, 2 figures facing each other as if having a hot conversation. The fourth one is ‘self confrontation’, 2 figures facing each other with perspective. The fifth one is a stylistic combination of ‘self confrontation’ and ‘disappointment’: ‘hierarchy’.  2 figures, in which one dominates the other. I made 5 additional sketches. The first one notable is done with ink and a continued thought of ‘hierarchy’. The bigger figure is now drawn on the left hand side and reaches out to the second figure.

Reprise

“To be in the hyphen, Radhakrishnan writes, “is a mandate to acknowledge coevalness between two histories as well as a call to redress the existing imbalances between two histories” (253). To be in the hyphen means to be an activist, an interventionist, a critical intellectual. Being in between two cultures, two worlds, the hyphenated individual realizes that no reality, neither the Cambodian nor the *Dutch, is absolute. The hyphenated individual finds herself always playing the double game. Never committed to both, always critical at spaces that breed oppression and exclusion, she shifts between two worlds, never at ease in each, but always at home in the in-between space. In his essay “Reflections on Exile,” Edward Said urges a similar attitude toward “cultivating” a critical and ambivalent position. “But, provided that the exile refuses to sit on the sidelines nursing a wound, there are things to be learned: he or she must cultivate a scrupulous (not indulgent or sulky) subjectivity” (365).” -Khmer Institute

Brap

whatsup with the…

…Zzz. My focuspoints have shifted to studying for my testweek next week and to some other project I hafta get busy wit. All this makes this one somewhat dusty… Ah well. Oh, and new? NO! Upside down!

1x closup. Added a little shade here and there and it definitly needs more. Music: old Firecracker EPs and that new Kid Sublime joint!

Love is…

Sa·ka·sa [säh'kŭz'säh] -noun

1. is the new project, a collective of three, it’s been hatched, it’s a fact!

Fooling around with different things, forcing myself to get out of my comfort zone …

Today was lotsa Ntjamrosie and A.Keys …

come on everybody and do the…

Had a pretty good testweek, now I’m back in affeck trying to do too much at a time, har… Scrapheap snippet, again. Stay tuned.

Sketchy

Music: a lot of Tribe & Theo Parrish